Thursday, June 15, 2006 ( 10:31 PM )
LiFe aS we kNoW iT....have u ever thought about how ur life is goin on rite now..well dat is mostly wad i do almost all the tyme...firstly how do i define life? i dun hv the answer...it is something dat goes wif da flow u can alwaes plan how u want it to be or dream it to be but not necessarily it will turn out ur wae...hmm i duno how to describe my life...rite during my preschool daes till now...thers alwaes the time wen the teacher or huever in any event will sae dis "OK clASS!! i want u all to find a partner n start the watever activity..." haiz...n it alwaes seem to happen dat i will be left with no one...its not something i feel sad abt (well maebe at times) but mostly afraid...i duno y sometimes u just feel the inferiority complex, the fear of loneliness the fear of rejection(almost evrybody has dat..i noe)...but then dats life...then one dae u'll just hv some ppl pop up in ur life n become ur frens...the process is slow but sure is worth all the while...dat is also part of life...i just feel dat at times despite being surrounded with so many ppl...i still feel alone somehow-not because i neeed a companion or anything its just dat u get lost in ur own mind n then wen u realise it..uve been left far behind...life may seem unfair at times but dats just it...u hv to get a grip of it(im trying to comfort myself here ok...)hahabut yes...u do hv wonderful ppl to share evrything with-family frens...so things do get a little out of hand when they get into the picture haha...frankly speaking or maebe typing...i dun even noe wad im talking about...all this is just general stuf which im pointing out some are relevant to my life some i dun even noe...haiz....will do for now
