at rest
Monday, June 18, 2007 ( 1:11 AM )
my mum's fine!!! yeayea!!!finally she has some colour in her face... its lonely without her ard...cos shes like my buddy haha since we r the only two Venus- originated human beings in the house- the others being from Mars...aniwae dat also means i can go to zakiyaya'a sleepover!!!i wish to enjoy as much time as i can this few daes...unfortunately my cash is draining fast oh crap....reali nd to find a job man...school's gonna reopen soon so i better prepare myself...to be honest, sometimes i feel lonely in school...not dat i dun have frens but...its just an altogether different situation wen ure in poly cos u hv something to talk abt only if ure in the same class for dat month n if ure not in the same class the next...the closeness as frens-gone just like dat...haiz haha how weird is dat...but who knows what the future holds..._________________________________________________as i am growing right now, mentally, physically(haha), psychologically and emotionally rght now, i realised and understand certain things better than before... i may not be the easiest person to talk to at times...but wen i am needed there for someone i will be there...that shield which has kept me strong all this while is still there though has become a little fragile as life's experiences has taken its toll on it... hiding my true feelings and emotions has been a strength that has been a very useful tool to me, its good wen u dun intend to show the true expression wen something has disturbed u, another face another expression another emotion just takes a hold upon the original..."i have a face but a face is not what i am...,""what i am you cannot see"these are not full qoutes, a combination of two, julian bell n johannes gumpp's respectively...but these two uncomplete sentences are enough to describe me...
You and I know how the heartaches come and they go...and the scars they're leaving...I didn't realise they were there in the first place...Or perhaps I just wanted to ignore it...hoping it will go by itself...
